1st entry since forever

dudeman...like whoa...this place has changed a heck lots since ive last been here...i almost fergot my password.which wouldve been tragic.

so my plan is to dust off this xanga place (hopefully new layout?), remove the cobwebs from the few wrinkles of my brain, remove the construction cones from my writer's block, and start writing here again. because ill be far far away from a lot of people i care about this summer, because i miss pretending people want to read my thoughts, reading the illustrious thoughts of other people, writing run-ons longer than the nile that over-floweth non-sensically...because i miss writing just to be writing

ill be off to china soon. its been more than a decade since ive been there. the village/town i was last at was such a quaint place...thats where ill be most of the summer.ive heard it doesnt really exist in that glorious way anymore...its been urbanized.
i dont really want to go visit beijing, because it seems a bit touristsy, but ill probably end up doing it anyway because, as expressed by my mom, im going that frikkin far i might as well visit beijing because who knows when ill even be on that continent again.
not that im no stranger to china, but i wanna get intimate with the more mundane day-to-day things. like speaking chinese a whole lot...and riding the public transportation there to explore the social jungle of life there.

speaking of public transportation, riding the rail in houston has given me lots to think about. i have this dream of making a concept album/writing poetry about the urban people...i think ill work on that this summer, in addition to playing basketball everyday. like, forreal this time dudes.

i miss ellipses...and sticking random thoughts in random places.

to end this 1st entry since forever...heres a lil something i wrote a few days ago


the sand between our toes
they run and trickle through
teasing and tickling
the millions and billions
each sand of time so tiny they slip slip slip
and slide
like children at the playground
swing swing
tick tock
on the grandfather clock
summer fall winter spring
such fleeting beauty
such fleeting grace
all the more lovely
for all the more fleets
sailing away
in the swells of the blue blue deep.

theres no defeat in short-lived
death reminiscences its glory.

every moment
every breath
that much more precious
that much more sacred
that much more loved

that much more.

Metamorphosis part II (see the "feelers"?) at chili's when youstina was serving and lindsey everette ryn and i were being extremely obnoxious.

wow.its april.

under our carpets lies 2006
in bits and pieces, fragments: dust
of the couldves shouldves wouldves
slowly fading
like the old too tired to climb out of bed
or the little white lies
that added up to monstrosities.
you
were as crazy a roller coaster as any other.
good times next to bad times
like red and green at christmas.
photos of you in our albums
of hellos and farewells
bittersweet.
but
who knew, when you were borne
that you bore
the deaths of those too young
death came back for you
you simply ran out
of time.
rip 2006.

2007, hello.

*toast* heres to a better year.heres to our year.

busy like crazy lately.

criticism please =)

From this:

"Simply put, there are more high school students, and they are applying in far greater numbers to the same amount of schools. The idea is that in order to win you must go to an elite college--to some people that means it's necessary to go to an elite high school, grade school, even preschool. ... Education is no longer about a learning experience; it's a game of Survivor where kids are strategizing to work against each other and beat the system."

"We have a myth. It's a myth that enrolling in an "elite" college guarantees success. There are ample studies to show that your undergraduate college doesn't affect your average salary or whether you'll be a CEO. "

"School is no longer about the love of learning. It's become a Machiavellian exercise where students and parents feel they have to do whatever is necessary to get an edge. It's a system that turns students into little more than their test scores."

"High schools should drop class rank because it encourages competition, cheating, and choosing classes based on GPA rather than genuine interest."

What do you think?